No medals here

Today I heard that I didn't make it to the shortlist of something I thought I was quite good at. I gave it my best shot, which is what should feel good. Except that it doesn't. It's not that I wanted it so badly that my world has shattered. I didn't. But I gave it my best shot. And my self judgement told me (and its usually correct) I did well. Yet I didn't.

Maybe I need to return to the competitive world. Maybe I'm losing the edge.

Not a happy day.

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